third world girl

Thursday, April 23, 2009

forever daddy's girl

Try your very best to find all of the pictures asked for. Use Facebook or the pictures stored in your computer. If you can't find one, that's okay. But leave all questions in the survey for others to find. :)

1. A picture of you in your room

... nothing happened :p not that it's any of your business.

2. A picture of you posing with someone you don't actually like

H8CHU. Pero salamat sa pagpunta sa lamay ni Papa.

3. A picture with a former crush.

Hindi man kami nagkatuluyan sa huli, siya pa rin ang first love ko. (2006 pa to...)

4. A picture of you very drunk.

I don't drink :|

5. A picture of you with a parent or two.

:(

Our last picture together :( I MISS YOU.

6. A picture of you on your birthday, or your favorite holiday.

This is my favorite day :(

7. A picture of you from your younger years.

in my Papa's arms :(

8. A picture of you in one of your favorite outfits.

My Papa and I went to an Ukay Ukay. He picked some clothes out for me pa hahaha.

9. A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.

10. A picture you might have edited to make yourself more attractive.

Okay. It didn't work.

11. A picture of you and a team or club you're in.

TEAM CHINESE IMMIGRANTS. (Dehesa Family)

BROKEN HEARTS AND FLYING PURPLE UNICORNS CLUB. (what?)

Wala si MJ at Sam So dito.

12. A picture of a night you regret...

Nalaman ko na may sakit si Papa.

13. A picture of you showing off a new haircut. (even if it's an old haircut)

14. A picture of you truly being yourself.

15. Your most recent picture.

I don't want to take pictures anymore.

16. A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.

17. A picture you're tagged in on Facebook that you aren't actually in.

Guess which. Obviously yung dancer. Duh.

18 .A picture of a time in your life that's over, but you wish it wasn't.

After you were gone, I opened your car and saw pictures. You had written captions on them and it broke my heart because I never showed you all of our pictures... I was always too busy with other things.

19. A picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is.

I wish I could go back to any time in my life before April 10.

If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
Cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father
again

20. A picture with your oldest friends.

21. A picture with your newest friends.

My older brother.

22. A picture of you when you were anything but happy... even if you were smiling and did your best to hide it.

23. A picture of you that you had no idea was being taken.

Christian was taking a picture of our hands.

24. A picture of you when you were a different person than you are now

Wordstruck days.

25. A picture of you in a fashion "DON'T"

26. A picture of you in a swimsuit - whether you love it or loathe it

I don't want to post my picture. Here's the swimsuit, though.

27. A picture of you taking a shot / chugging a beer / downing some sort of mixed drink

I'm holding it but I didn't drink it.

I MISS THIS.

28. A picture of yourself that you hate

I hate this because I always begged you to let me drive and now I wish you could drive me again.

29. A picture of you with someone you love

30. A picture of how you'd like the world to see you

A ~*STAR*~ Hahaha.

31. A picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day

32. A picture of a time when everything was changing

33. A picture that makes your heart hurt

I WILL MISS THIS.

34. A picture that makes your heart smile

35. A picture of one of the best times of your life

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

my dearest best friend

As children, we planned our lives out as if it were as simple as choosing between the rusty seesaw or the worn-out swing at recess. We drew images of our future with every color of the rainbow stacked neatly inside yellow Crayola boxes and sealed the deal by linking our pinky fingers together and solemnly vowing "peksman, cross my heart and hope to die".

Even at a young age, I was already sure that we would eventually live together in a messy, cramped dormitory that was surprisingly decorated in a similar way as your Polly Pocket Dream House and go to the same college. Of course, there was no doubt in my mind that the fact that we would have different professions would be no problem. Our offices would obviously be conveniently located within walking distance from each other so that we could take public transportation together in the mornings and evenings and also have lunch together during our break like we were still sharing our packed lunch in grade school or overpriced iced coffee in high school.

Many details in our story used to change as we grew older and our interests varied. The posters on the walls of our future dormitory room went from the Spice Girls to Westlife to Stephen Speaks while the college that we planned on going to became located farther and farther, until eventually we were both positive that we would go to a University in New York. Even our career paths had bends and kinks in the road - we switched options in our lines of work so frequently that it was hard even for our over active imagination to keep up. I wanted to be a psychologist one week, a journalist the next, while you considered tourism and weighed its pros and cons against the competitive field of HRM.

Throughout all of this, our friendship remained as constant as the goto wth egg served at the Canteen or the sermons Ms. Gatchalian gave during assemblies in the Social Hall (Hole). And even now, as I ponder on how differently our lives turned out from our plans, I know that I can give up the dream of working closely together or even forcing our future children to be best friends, too, just as long as our friendship remains non-negotiable.

Because right now, as I lose everything else, I realize that there are a few things that I can still count on. And I'm happy that what I have with you will always be one of them.

Labels: dearly beloved

there's a 13 year-old girl inside of me that will never get over missing you

thank you for being a friend. it's a far cry from what we used to be, but I'll take whatever I can get. I just pray that I won't lose you - God knows it was hard enough the first time.

and I should know better than to solve a problem by making another mistake but please understand that you are the only person I can tell my secrets to. I don't want to give other people reasons to pity or make fun of me more than they already do but with you, I don't have to be afraid of what you will think.

after all, no one else in this world knew me at my worst and still chose to love me like I was the best.

Labels: hit and miss, love is a battlefield

and I wish I would blog instead of doing this but

EVER LOST A CELL PHONE?
- july 24, 2008 :)
2.THINGS YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
- make up (horrible skin.. okay), food, clothes :)
3.LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
- fruit cocktail :)
4.WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
- welcome to the town of puto :)
6.CAN YOU COOK?
- no :( I love oven toaster and electric water heater
7.CAN YOU SING?
- unfortunately not :(
8.DO YOU SMOKE?
- never have
9.PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOASTS?
- pancakes! nom nom nom :)
10.DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
- somnetimes :)
11.WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED?
- "mahal na mahal kita therese ko. akin ka na ba talaga forever? =c"
12.CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
- nope
14.FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?:
- any! LOVE IT :)
15.WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS
MORNING?
- 7? early riser eh :)
16.WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO THIS WEEKEND?
- date? yay :)
17.DO YOU THINK YOUR FAMOUS?
- no :(
18.DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
- I have, in my heart :)
19.WHAT WERE YOU DOING 30 MINUTES AGO?
- chatting with Jess?
20.IF YOU WERE A COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
- depends on my mood.. mostly pink though :)
21.IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE?
- somwehere far :)
22.FOOD YOU'RE CRAVING FOR RIGHT THIS
MINUTE?
- water lang :)
23.NAME PEOPLE WHO'S NAME STARTS WITH
THE LETTER"J"?
- jess, JODI (corinne)
24.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU PUT IN YOUR MOUTH?
- when I wake up? water
25. DO YOU HATE ANYONE?
- nope :(
26.WHERE DO YOU USUALLY HANG OUT?
- la casita
28.WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO TOMORROW?
- i don't know yet
30.FAVORITE DAY?
- with you :)
32.WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP?
- misha?
33.WHERE IS HE/SHE?
- bahay lang
34.HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
- konti lang :)
35.FAVORITE PLACE IN YOUR HOUSE?
- kahit saan may signal :(
36.WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE FRUITS?
- any! love them
37.IF YOU'RE SUPERHERO, WHO WILL YOU BE?
- powerpuff girl :p
38.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU DID THIS MORNING?
- thought of you
39.LAST THING YOU DO BEFORE GOING TO BED?
- close my eyes nga
40.WHICH DO YOU PREFER MOVIE OR COFFEE?
- basta with someone :(
41.SKIRT/SHORT OR PANTS?
- usually pants :(
42.WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE MALL?
- anywhere.. di ako masyado mahilig lately eh
43.WHAT DO YOU DO THERE?
- walk, eat, shop
44.WHAT ANIMAL WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE AS A PET?
- can I take you home?
45.DO YOU DRINK?
- no
46.CAN YOU DANCE?
- not much
47.JOLLIBEE, MCDO or KFC?
- lahat :) love fast food
48.LAST SONG YOU HEARD?
- dont remember
49.LAST MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED
- heartbreak kid
50. BEER or HARD?
- neither
50. DO YOU SAY I LOVE YOU, EVEN YOU DONT MEAN IT?
- never
51. DO YOU PLAN TO HURT SOME ONE?
- no
52. HOW'S YOUR LOVELIFE?
- thank God
53. RECENT GIFT YOU RECEIVE?
- cake from poknat
55. DO YOU EXPERIENCE TO BE LOVED?
- yes
56. HOW MANY BF/GF LOVED U?
- not applicable
57. ARE YOU EASILY JEALOUS?
- yes
58. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE?
- always
59. ARE YOU FLIRT?
- harmless
60. DOES ANYONE HATE YOU?
- i hope not :(

If someone says we need to talk, what runs through your mind?
- oh no :( no good sentence begins with that phrase.. has anyone ever said "let's get ice cream" or "your shoes are awesome" after that? didn't think so.
Are you in a good mood?
- not really :(
What made you sad today?
- missing someone :(
Ditched school to do something more fun?
- never. yes, I am aware that I am a suck up.
What was the first thing you did this morning?
- cry :p
Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
- no :( why
Are you better at Math or English?
- Math.. ulul.
In the past week have you felt stupid?
- yes :( not to mention disappointed and depressed but whatever.
How's your heart lately?
- kind of broken but then again I'm blessed :)
Were you happy when you woke up today?
- happier than I have been in the past few days but still so sad :(
Do you know the words to the song/songs on your Friendster profile?
- not applicable :(
Last thing received in the mail?
- christmas card.. wow everything makes me sad.
Besides this, what are you doing?
- thinking really hard :(
When was the last time something bothered you?
- something always bothers me :(
Have you ever fallen asleep on the telephone?
- yes :)
Have you ever told anyone you were okay when you're not?
- what else am I supposed to say?
Are you fighting with someone?
- I don't think so
Where was the last place you went besides your house
- La Salle Bundok
Do you know the last person/people you were in a car with other than family?
- Michael, Sam, Jacque, Samantha and Maren
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
- yes
How many months until your birthday?
- nung ngcmula ako sa bulitin na to, hinde ko pa bday. ngyun bday ko na. haha:)) - actually.
Last sporting event you watched on TV?
- probably basketball? not a fan.
Are you sleepy?
- yes
Is cheating ever okay?
- on school? yes. something else? no, not really.
Can you whistle?
- no :(
Waiting on anything?
- yes!
What shoes did you wear today?
- brown slippers and pink house slippers.
Have you ever fallen in love with someone you didn't expect to?
- no
Are you a patient person?
- never! I can't stand waiting :(
Is it important to you if your friends like the person your dating?
- if you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends
You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life,what is it?
- water din :)
Does the person you like, like you back?
- thank God
What usually cheers you up?
- sweet nothings.. :)

so I have this need to store my surveys

1. Why did you stop loving the last person you loved?
? it's hard when the person you love and the one you're with happen to be two different people. nge.
2. Are you usually heartbroken?
? yeah, I'm too sensitive and emotional :(
3. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
? water
4. What's your current favorite song?
? I Stay in Love - M to the C :)
5. How is life going for you right now?
? ... not my best week :(
6. Regret(s)?
? who doesn't? but I've learned to live with it..
7. What was the first thing you said when you woke up this morning?
? "umalis na yung daddy mo. tawagan mo na lang daw siya" "ah, ok."
8. Do you have A best friend?
? we've been best friends for 15 years. deyum.
9. Have you ever hated someone?
? hate is such a strong word. maybe dislike.. probably allergic haha.
10. Have you liked someone, but ended up hating that person so much?
? no
11. Why?
? I've only liked like 3 guys lin my life and I'm good friends with all of them :)
12. Do you believe in chances?
? yes
13. Will you give a chance to someone, who made a very big mistake in your life?
? I always do! :(
14. What do you think of people who have sex before marriage?
? ewan ko sa kanila pero ako, I will wait until I am married. good luck? haha!
15. Do you own a pair of green pants?
? I have blue, black, white, brown and pink pants :p
16. What are you excited about?
? in 2 months, my batchmates and I can have our OJT na and after that, welcome to the working life hahaha :)
17. Do you believe that what comes around, goes around?
? "part of the fantasy of every betrayed person is that one day, the person who hurt you will come back and answer all of your questions and apologize for hurting you but the thing is, they won't..." - Oprah (daw :p)
18. What is your favorite fruit?
? mmmm mangoes :) I love most fruits and even vegetables.. god, what a boring person
19. Now how's your relationship with your last ex?
? aww, no ex :(
21. Do you miss your ex?
? no one to miss - me too :(
22. Which ex do you miss?
? I don't have an ex nga
23. When is your birthday?
? tuwing umuulan.. wow, my girl?
24. Memorable comment you had?
? I love getting comments.. especially from long lost friends that want to say hi and stuff :P
25. Are you going to search for a new girl/boyfriend now?
? I'm single and satisfied, thank you :) besides, parang wala namang nagbago sa amin ni Poknat eh haha.
26. Do you like someone right now?
? I do.
27. Last person you had YM with?
? Jess, my son :)
28. Last person you texted?
? Christian :)
29. Last person who texted you?
? Si Christian din.. haha!
30. Last person to whom you said, "i love you too"?
? my mother dearest :)
31. Anything you want?
? health and wellbeing of my family and friends. and maybe some chips.
32. Does it hurt when you love someone but they don't love you back?
? I don't know yet
33. How does it feel when you see someone you love happy with somebody else?
? hmmm... I don't want to find out :)
35. How long was your last relationship?
? no last relationship but Christian and I? more than 2 and a half. nge.
36. Can you forget all of the memories about you and your first love?
? we try not to talk about it.. we don't want to hurt each other more than we already have.
37.Do you still think about her/him everyday?
? 1st love? yes.
38. Do you still hope that you can get him/her back to you?
? I know it won't happen
39. Why?
? manuel | -òn fïrè- (5/25/2008 3:28:59 PM): i loved you but when i left i had to let you go
40. Woman/man and replace her/him?
? yeah, Christian is awesome :)
41. How are you feeling?
? lazy as heck.
42. Who are you thinking of at this
moment?
? e-aji chips and dip, please.
43. What do you want to do right now?
? eat, like I always do.
45. What's your wish?
? do the things I have to do and stick to it like glue. yeah.

Do you ever get "good morning" texts from anyone?
- sometimes :(
Who last texted you?
- jayson pabalan
What woke you up this morning?
- I didn't sleep... so...
Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex?
- dark? haha whatever
What was your dream about last night?
- I always dream about the people that I recently thought about.
How is your hair right now?
- not a very good hair day so it's in a loose, messy bun :)
Do you prefer to call or text?
- depends. I'm more comfortable with talking but you put more effort into texting :p
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
- ... minsan. ay.
Are you a bad influence?
- no... I'm a killjoy. =D
When was the last time you went shopping?
- February 1? I think I was with Melissa at Festi :)
Did you laugh a lot at something today?
- not yet (what a surprise :p)
What's bothering you right now?
- family, friends, studies, org, OJT... so I think too much :(
What were you doing last night at 11?
- just finished talking to my best friend
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
- the girls at absinth :)
Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
- no one but myself :(
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
- if you really love your family and friends or that significant other then I don't think that the time you spent is wasted :p
What do you prefer,skittles or starbursts?
- I don't think I've ever had starbursts so skittles :) Maren loves skittles!
How was last night?
- fun-filled! not...
How do you feel right now?
- frustrated, disappointed, tired
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- I hope
Are you thinking about someone?
- about Deedin! sa kaniya galing eh :p
Are you a jealous person?
- yes, even with my family and friends :(
Do you currently hate someone?
- nope :) hate is a curved blade.. the harm you do to others, you do to yourself :p
Who was the last person you texted?
- Jayson Pabalan
Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
- yes.. I'm such a bore.
Think a lot before you sleep?
- always do.
Ever dyed your hair?
- just once :)
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
- a lot :)
What does the sixteenth text in your inbox say?
- "oi bruha hapi bertdey..." - hazelle
"mas mahal na kita ngayon =)" - Christian
Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
- so much has changed :(
Where will you be in a year from now?
- still here... the man who can't be moved?

Last time u ate MCDO?
- yesterday.. lunch and dinner :) wala kasi akong gana kumain lately so doon lang palagi :)
When was the last time you were truly completely happy with your life?
- now? :) it's good to be loved :) thank you
Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
- yes :) I love reading :)
Does anyone know your password besides you?
- no but they used to..
Last night did you go to sleep smiling?
- no :( I think I cried myself to sleep.. nge. joke lang. tama lang.
Did you have a good day today?
- it's good to be alive.. ay.
What is your current mood?
- I've been better.. but I'm still truly blessed and I'm glad :)
How's your life lately?
- wow thank you for ruining my night with that question :) I've been learning a lot about myself :)
Is there one place you'd like to visit?
- Christian! Vigan tayo! haha :) no seriously, maganda daw dun :)
Have you held hands with anyone today?
- aww no :( galing siyang retreat eh :(
Who did you hang out with last?
- my girlies (Jacque, Samantha and Maren) and boyfies (SamSo and Michael) at Mcdo
Do you miss your past?
- wala naman akong past eh :)
What was the last thing you put into your mouth?
- bastos nito. fruit cocktail.
Did you ever lose a best friend?
- I don't want to think of it that way. I'd rather believe that in time, our lives will fall back into place and things will be just like they were before :(
What are you listening to?
- the tap tap tap of the keys on the keyboard
Who is the last person that made you smile?
- Christian
Is your phone close to you?
- no
What are you doing tomorrow?
- sleep :)
what are your plans dis wkend?
- date with Christian :)
- Are you frustrated?
- YES :( you have no idea! I am frustration in the flesh.
Who last sent you a message on myspace?
- probably some stranger.. I haven't been to that site in months :)
Did you hug anyone today?
- yes :)
Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
- YES :(
Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
- Jess Paningasan :)
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
- my dear parents :(
Would you consider being married/ engaged right now?
- not yet.. in a couple of years
(sabi ni Christian, pag 30 na daw siya.. WHAT)
What is one thing you do before you go to sleep?
- close my eyes :(
Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
- always do :)
Has someone ever made you a promise & broke it?
- little things.. but no big deal.. well, hindi pa.. sana never :(

Saturday, February 7, 2009

to jacque, with much love :)

She used to be somewhat of a frenemy, but I'm so glad to say that she no longer is because many can say that this beautiful woman is one of the best friends anyone could ever hope to have.

And now that this stage of our life is coming to an abrupt end, I am afraid that this might be one of the last birthdays we can actually spend together because I know that in no time, she'll be so busy taking over the advertising world like she took over the hearts of everyone who has ever had the blessing of knowing someone as intelligent and super funny as her.

Here's to less songs to add to the bitter girls' soundtrack and more DS games, funky shoes and lots and lots of love and laughter...

Happy 19th birthday, Jacqueline Noelle (sorry, couldn't help it :p)

Thursday, February 5, 2009

my life in surveys :(

I’m tired of:
- having second thoughts :(
I am listening to:
- the voices inside my head. be afraid, be very.. no, not really.
Maybe I should:
- study for my exam tomorrow but no.
Chocolate is:
- good but ripe mangoes are better. who do I have to kill to even smell that little piece of heaven? seriously.
I last ate:
- I WISH IT WERE RIPE MANGOES. sweet, juicy, fragrant mangoes. Christ Lord help us all.
Right now I'm craving:
- THANK YOU FOR ASKING
Love is:
- blind. so love me. - john lloyd as popoy imitating james blanco as whatshisname in One More Chance.
tommorow:
- TEST. Have I studied? No, no I have not. Do you have ripe mangoes? No? Okay.
Do you miss someone?:
- Kahit dried mangoes lang &*%#! Haha okay lang :)
Are you wearing chop stick?:
- I used to gather my hair in a bun and fasten it by stabbing a pencil through. Tried to, anyway.
Are you tired?:
- sleep is for the weak.
Are you wearing pajamas:
- enough about me. what about you?
Are you upset?:
- yes :
LASTS:
Last drink?
- water lang
Last phone call?
- with Christian.. aww.
Last time you cried?
- yesterday :(
RANDOM QUESTIONS
Ever laughed until you almost cried?
- I always do.
Is there something you want to tell someone?
- the weird taste in your mouth after you eat sisig at La Casita? it's not just you. you are not alone.
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
- yes but I havent had a significant other who smokes (malamang, isa pa lang) so..
Last person you texted:
- Christian
Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
- my Tita. But na add ko na pala siya. Nakakainis yun diba? Dalawa pala pangalan niya sa phone mo kaya pag nagtext siya eh number lang lalabas.
Where is your next road trip?
- Batangas daw with my college friends
Where is the person you like at right now?
- Los Banos
What outfit do you have on at this exact moment?
- Hello Kitty t-shirt
How do you feel?
- running out of excuses NOT to study.
When was the last time you talked to your number 1?
- featured friend? last week pa ata yung matagal naming pagtetext :(
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
- I hate it when it's hot :(
Where did you sleep last night?
- caught between my pillows and blanket
What/who woke you up today?
- my dad knocking on the door
Is there anyone you want to be with right now?
- there are a lot :(

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